Understanding Engaged

I dont undestand being engaged. I understand I love you. I understand I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I don't understand why we ask a person to spend the rest of our lives with us and then make them wait a year to do it. If we aren't ready to get married why do we ask?
I don't do well in gray areas and engagement just feels like a big holding pattern. I'm feel like I'm sitting in a plane out on the tarmac.

I also don't understand a wedding. I understand a marriage, but I don't understand spending a year of my life focused on one day. I don't understand spending thousands of dollars on something that will virtually be over in the blink of an eye (after you wait the year to actually blink your eye).

I don't understand how something that is truly only about two people becomes about everybody else.

Brainstorming up a Wedding

I like these for the flowers:

We should get married here:

First Presbyterian Church of Navasota

I'm thinking the bridesmaids should wear this:

http://www.davidsbridal.com/Product_Short-Chiffon-Halter-Dress-with-Pleating-F13954_Bridal-Party-Bridesmaids-Shop-By-Length-Short-Bridesmaid-Dresses

I'm thinking I like this for me:
http://www.davidsbridal.com/Product_Allover-beaded-lace-trumpet-gown-T9612_Bridal-Gowns-Features-Most-Popular

We should honeymoon here:

We should get married on April 2, but due to extenuating circumstances I'm really super hoping for March 5th.